I Want More

I walk alone these city streets,
Scared to find someone who really cares,
'Cause everyone I seem to meet,  
Takes one look at me,
And disappears.

And I want more.

I was a loner as a child.
Scared of everyone, 
But mostly of what's inside of me.
The differences that I feel.

I want more.
I wanna feel alive,
Not tangled up in my mind.
I want more,
Down to my core.
I don't have to be perfect anymore.
 
You beat me down until till I'm weak,
And hiding from the sun.
And every one I meet's in fear,
And I want you to know,
I've met everyone.

You know I carry all the guilt,
I'm feeling all the shame.
And every demon that I've loved,
Can't be broken down.
I just can't be saved.

I prowl the nighttime while you sleep,
So isolated.
But mostly what I hide inside,
I hide from you,
I hide from God. 

I want more.
I wanna feel alive,
Not tangled up in my mind.
I want more,
Down to my core.
I don't have to be perfect anymore.